secret. feeling.

dont know how to start this post. i even dont know how to express my feeling through words.

i have to admit that it already somehow deep in my heart. without my acknowledge. so it is hard to ignore the bloody weird unwanted feeling. im trying really hard to overcome it. to forget it.

this is a secret. a big secret between me n the other gal.

i hope it can forever be a secret. yes. forever..

...wat a SAD day...

==哭过就好了==

不喜欢怀疑什么
并不表示我没有感受
看你微妙的变化
慢慢不同
我不是生气
只是心痛

最讨厌被误会了
但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变
但不能说
你会这么做
是我的错

哭过就好了
伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍
爱是为了拥抱 为了牵手
不是为了争吵 为了掉头

哭过就好了
痛都会走的
记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌
想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

最讨厌被误会了
但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变
但不能说
你会这么做
是我的错

哭过就好了
伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍
爱是为了拥抱 为了牵手
不是为了争吵 为了掉头

哭过就好了
痛都会走的
记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌
想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得 推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某个地方

哭过就好了
伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍
爱是为了拥抱 为了牵手
不是为了争吵 为了掉头

很喜欢这首梁文音的歌

我，真的变了吗？
你可以说我变了
但你没这么说
是我造成的吗？

爱是 为了 拥抱 为了 牵手
不是 为了 争吵 为了 调头
这让我 想起了你对我说的
开心加倍，痛苦减半

你开心吗？
这种问题 不知 发生了多少次
是远距离 是时差 的关系吗？

为什么 我慢慢觉得
我的 开心慢慢被你不安的情绪掩盖了

我不知道上次的伤复原得怎样了
但伤总是会 好的
可是留下的疤痕总是让我心如刀割


我只想说
两个人在一起
不该是这样的

never known birthday

the person.....
one whole day.....

train volleyball with us...
had dinner in TGI Friday with us...
shopping with us...
helped us to carry bags n coats while we busy trying clothes...
being our "ah sei"
helped us to choose birthday presents for frens...
shared the presents with us....
standing alone in the train while we gals were happy chatting...

until late nite...
only we knew that...
the person who accompanied us from 11/12 nite till 13/12 1am....
it was his birthday...on 12/12....
and we totally dun know bout tat....
when we realised...
it already passed 12/12...

stupid! stupid! stupid!!!

happy birthday, Chris...

but dun do that again...

we seriously felt guilty...

snow. HOME.!

right in front of sport zal

cant see the tiny snow ball on my hand??
haha..coz the background is white too...

like this!^^

cute version of Alice See@.@

funny version of Alice See>.<"

Today had some random shot in the snow with Alice...
the snow was more "polite" today...
snow flies down softly...
juz like how i imagine Christmas day should be...
like it~!


tmr Russian class canceled again^^means i can coil myself under my warm blanket until at least 10am tomorrow morning... yeeppiee!

but...after Anatomy lecture..we gotta travel for ard 1 hour to Zil hospital to attend surgery class.. the class is only ard 45min...stupid rite?haiz...never mind..when 2nd sem start..no more surgery class..only therapy class which held in hospital in Yugo...

Waiting. waiting colloqs to pass. waiting finals. waiting to go home.

I muz say. i cant stop thinking of going back HOME this winter break!^^every nite before i fall asleep, i keep imagining how i spend my 3 weeks time in Msia. family. CNY. shopping. food. yamcha. frens.
i think i gonna get crazy if i dun control myself a bit! waaaakakakakkakaaa...!!

25/1/2010 i will be flying back to HOME! woohoo!!

interbatch game 2009

好多东西要update哦
多到不懂要从哪里开始呵。。。

好。。。

上个星期六
就是我们大学一年一度的interbatch game啦
但是这个game只是for RSMU Malaysian students的
为什么呢？
我也不懂。。
可能因为我们和俄罗斯人真的没得比吧
先说明
我只是说运动方面哦！
因为在学业方面，
连老师都大赞我们比俄罗斯学生更好哦！^^

讲回interbatch game...
女排比赛在下午5点才开始
但是我们5个下午3点就去会场了
为什么呢？
哈哈
为了看男排咯

大家不要误会哦
我们只是支持性的看比赛
并没有特别意思哦

在去年的排球uniteam里，
女排和男排的感情已经蛮不错了的
时不时都会有聚餐啊，玩牌的，
为了增进感情，培养默契嘛
（虽然男排和女排之间不用默契啦）
哈哈
但是我们每次练球都男女一起练
很多技巧都是他们教的
所以我们的关系很好
好像兄妹那么好
嘻嘻

所以咧，
大哥哥们比赛，
妹妹们哪可以不去支持啊？
但是咧，
我们表示支持的程度也有点点过火的
有时啦 只是有时有点太兴奋
尤其是看到他们杀球时
简直是叫到。。。叫到破音都有！
哈哈哈！

他们看到我们这么支持
也不会忽视我们的尖叫声的
特别是N，杀了一粒很美的球后
还会转过来给我们个胜利的表情
哈哈哈
太可爱了！XP

蓝白线条衣的就是N!

看看Alice兴奋的样子～嘻嘻！

哈哈
讲完男排
到女排了
我们呢，战战兢兢，
总算没有枉费大家的支持
今年得了第一名^^

顽皮的Chanaz!

2nd Year CHAMPION~!!!!!!^^

有看我上几篇post的朋友应该知道
我不只参加一样球类吧
哈哈哈
本小姐呢
还参加了篮球呢！
不要惊讶
尤其是那些新来的大一生
本小姐不只会打排球哦！

今年女篮的人
少得可怜
只有6个小女生
真的是小女生哦
平均高度155cm吧
（不算soo ying的话）
哈哈哈
我没真正计算过

6个小女生
打全场
对手们都高头马大
我们还是可以毫发无伤地夺得冠军！！！
厉害吧！
哈哈哈哈！！

这张照片不能证明我们的高度！看下一张！

认识我的朋友应该知道我有多“高”的啦！
看我们依高度一字排开，还是能打赢身高170cm的咯！
150+cm万岁！！！^^

总结：

2009年12月5日
2nd Year 夺得了全场第三名！！！^^

明年要参加更多比赛
培养更多其他球类的运动健将
向全场总冠军进攻！！！=]

塞翁失马，焉知非福！^^

昨天好开心哦！

塞翁失马，焉知非福！^^

虽然我不能去欧洲旅行，
但我可以回家过新年，好开心哦！
呵呵呵～

本来 来这里读书之前
已经做好心理准备
这6年都不能在家过年，都没有红包收了。

现在突然爸妈问我要不要回家，

超超超超超开心的！！！！

好咯~
又要开始读书了，
等会儿还要去sport zal
有interbatch game...
我参加了basketball 和 volleyball...^^
超怕篮球的，
因为久没有打了，都在打排球，
怕打得很粗鲁，
女生嘛，还是可以很狼的哦～
怕～

拜咯～^^

保持好心情～

女生当自强！

从小到大，父母和老师不都有教我们做人要有责任感吗？

这么简单的，而每个人都应有的道理，
没想到人长大了会抛弃它。

如果每个人负一点责任，稍微付出一点点，
我们女生们就不用这么辛苦了。

唉～
算了！

女生当自强！
绝对可以强过某些没用的男生！！！

**对不对，姐妹们？？**

Emptiness

Suddenly feel the emptiness. it is 2.38am now. outside is totally quiet. im the only one wide awake here. dunno wad to write in my fb shoutout. coz i have no idea wad i encounter today. ordinary. ordinary. uni. test. dinner. drama. blogging.

sent out a few mail. nth important. juz wanna know hows my fren doing in the other side of the earth.

outing this saturday. gonna watch movie for the first time in Russia. 2012. looking forward.

is these all i wanna say?
no idea...
a hole..
big big hole...
deep in my heart....

ohya...
congrats to my dear for getting the offer from SEP! i was very excited when thinking of u having new life in a new place. but the timing is kinda bad. so no rush. think wisely before u decide k? no matter wad decision u make, it will be fine. u will gain sth unexpected while u let go of sth.

bla bla bla~dunno wad m i talking....

Amos, suddenly think of ur grandpa. bet u will miss him very much in US.

bla bla bla~wads wrong with me today?



haiz
forget bout it..
i shdnt have think so much..
i shd be in my bed now...

good nite guys~

PISSED OFF!

did u ever been provoked by the same person twice in a day?

OMG~!
ok.....
he didnt provoke me...
but his attitude of taking studies like tat really pissed me off!!!

Dunno whether he studied for russian control onot ytd...
but he seems to have zero knowledge in wad we test today...
summor dare to borrow our answer paper to copy?!
of coz we didnt borrow him!
taught him how to do..
taught him where to find answer..
still he unable to complete the paper himself...

FYI, this isnt the first time he acts like this...
he always went classes without preparation...
he always went classes without doing homework...
he always took tests with not more than 50% of knowledges...

OH MY GODNESS!

tat was the first thing happened this morning...
another thing happened in the evening...
this time seriously pissssssssssed me offffff!!!

when everyone was looking into the microscope
saw him standing in front of teacher's table...
(teacher went out n left her students attendance n test marks list on the table)
guess wad's next?
i cant believe tat i saw him wrote sth on teacher's paper!
even though i dunno wad he wrote...
i'm sure it was sth he not suppose to do!

he was too LUCKY coz been caught red handed by me...
i asked " wat r u doing there?wat did u write on teacher's list?"
he juz kept quiet n threw me a disgusting smile!
wat de xxxx is tat!
he answered "im too lazy to retake the test."

so?????
too lazy den can write marks for urself?!
wad a good answer!
why dun u write marks for ur finals as well??!
#$^%*%^@%!!^?&*#$
UNBELIEABLE!!!!

eventually he reluctantly liquid off wad he wrote
after tat still ada muka talk to me like nth happened at all!
wad kind of people is this???!

we studied till late nite till got eye bags
n the guy tried to skip everything n jump to the end like tat!!



SHAME ON YOU, CROACH!
NO PAIN NO GAIN U KNOW?
DUN EVER TRY TAT ANYMORE!
NEXT TIME I WILL NEVER JUZ LET YOU GO LIKE TODAY.

NO SUCCESS WILL COME WITHOUT PUTTING EFFORT IN IT!
U WAS JUZ RUINING URSELF BY DOING TAT!

COULDN'T YOU JUZ SPEND "SOME" OF UR TIME ON UR BOOKS?
TRY TO BE A REAL MAN K?
DUN MAKE URSELF A GUY TAT PPL WILL LOOK DOWN AT!

HOWEVER,
YOU HAVE OFFICIALLY LOST MY TRUST!

气在心里

昨天惹我一次还不够吗？
今天又惹我?!!
欠骂吗?!!

昨天的我，
已经很冷静的面对你了，
已经很大量的不跟你计较了，
甚至不让你察觉到我的忿怒。

你真的很不会看人脸色咯！
“不爽”已经写在脸上了，
你怎么还可以一副没事的样子！

什么都以自己为中心，
没有顾虑过别人的感受，
你是学生，
难道我不是吗？
你怕辛苦，
难道我就很喜欢辛苦吗？

呵！~~
该说你天真好，还是无知好？
看来我的火不够猛，
烧不到都不觉得热啊！

我不爽的人，
竟然在我身边没事的说，
chiaw er is blogging~

我已经生气到不想睬她
不想回答她的问题
连看都不想看她一眼

天啊！

我该怎么跟这种天真的人沟通！！！！



或许我真的不会生气人
或许我真的太没有用了
连生气一个人的勇气都没有
只会在这里写写写
她鬼懂咩！

唉~
算了~
读书吧~！
明天还有Russian考试
要背的特别名词多得乱成一团了

加水吧~

热水澡

25分钟 让水在身上不停的流
试验证明：水果然可以让人冷静下来
虽然我洗的是热水澡

控制住自己的情绪了
现在该继续努力了

详情，等我用功完才来写啦！

天晴了

现在已经12.27AM了
两天前答应了爸爸要早早睡觉的
对不起爸爸
恐怕我很难每天都做到
哈哈

长话短说。。。

朋友，
情绪化是解决不到问题的。
知道你为什么这么情绪化吗？
因为你太执著于它了。

坚持是好事
但过于执著就坏了好事

我知道你很在意
就是在意那么的一点点
就那么的一点点可以让你更好过
但既然已成定局
就不要为它过分难过了
这样身边的人也很为难啊

试着放下，
你的天空就会放晴了。

另一件事：
我一直疑惑的问题
今天终于得到解答了
谢谢Isaac的耐心回答

但这只是第一题
接下来还有更难的问题接踵而来
希望在这寻找答案的过程中
能让我体会到可贵的事情
也希望问题可以得到正确的解答

相信
我都相信

Bad of having INTERNET!

I can't stop staring at my laptop instead of my books!!!!

！读书！！

星期二考histology,
Integumentary system
Respiratory system
Digestive system...
3大chapter...
真是。。。
恐怕很难读完。。。

加油吧，group 26(b)!

p/s: 刚才3粒口香糖一起咬，好累哦~

study study study study study study study study study

internet!

YooHoooo~!!!!!!!

internet service is back!!!

1st thing i wanna do is...........check on fb!
2nd thing is.............download drama!!!

Muakakakakaka~!!!^^

尹如敏，我很爱你。。的部落格！

我是个懒人
也是个烂人

我懒，
因为我十年才写部落一次
我烂，
因为我不会做人

尹如敏，
我很爱你的部落，
当然也很爱你，
希望你看到这里时，
不会吓到。

尹如敏，
我要向你看齐！

不然，
我不懂我的生活，
我不懂我在做什么，
我不懂情绪的整理，
我不懂如何表达自己，
我不懂自己到底是谁！


好！
现在开始，
这就是我！

今天洗澡时，
特别注意某些事情。

比如说，
发现我很爱头发多多泡泡的感觉。。。
发现我习惯把头发拨到左边洗。。。
发现我忘了刚才洗澡时还注意到什么了。。。

身边两个室友都生病了
一个讲很冷
一个讲很热
一个讲头痛
一个讲肚子痛

希望她们早日康复啦
还有加强抵抗力啦
进入冬天了
加上swine flu的袭来
抵抗力们，要振作哦！

我不懂自己在写什么？
写部落就是这样的感觉的吗，如敏？

算了，
等下还要去上课，
Anatomy...
上了很多堂课的digestive system..
做了很多张纸的notes...
乱七八糟，
还没整理。

昨晚画tonsil & esophagus & tongue 画到两三点
在Anatomy class学到的
就是怎样画美美
其他的
不懂我脑袋装了多少

该走了
拜~

p/s: 我说我会写的，但不是这里。等我想清楚了，你就会看到的。

归宿在哪里？

现在才知道
“离乡背井”会面对的大问题

在马来西亚有两个家
两个都是让我精神寄托的家

在俄罗斯也有一个家
找到了让身体休息的家
但始终找不到我最需要的家

这里没有我的归宿
拼命寻找类似的依靠
寻寻觅觅寻寻觅觅
不断接触，不断尝试
慢慢了解，慢慢体会

蛋糕的口味千万种
每个人都喜欢尝试不同的口味
从中选择自己最喜欢的

如果我找到了我最爱的口味
但是在这里却没有卖
怎么办？
改吃别的口味？
还是在这里都不吃蛋糕了？
但是这蛋糕对我真的很重要。

越走越近，越踩越深
还在烦的时候又多了一个选择

自己的归宿在这里是找不到的
没有归宿的日子
真的不知该怎么过
真希望我的“家人”可以到这里来
陪在我身边创造我们的归宿

怎么办
怎么办
是时候抽身吗？
但是抽身后又怎样？
又踏入另一个沼泽吗？

烦

100909 0030

why is everyone talking about 090909?

no...
not everyone...
ppl around me didnt mention about it at all...
only friends in msia r interested in it...

WHY?????

this is a special date...
but not a special day for me...

time passed very fast when i was watching "Overheard"
seeing all of them died one by one...
time passed very fast when i was reading frens' blog...
lichi is leaving to England soon...
hope she enjoy her packing...
rumin seems still have endless stories to blog...
n i missed endless stories of hers too...so sorry...
sm's life is still so adventurous as usual...
n she can go back to msia for cny which i cant for 5 more years...

today is nothing special for me...

nitez~

逃避？！

昨天学校发生了一件好笑的事：

早上的课上不到一个小时
广播就在走廊上响起
要所有在大学里的人全离开大楼到外面的空地去
不到十分钟，
外头就挤满了很多人。

不久后，
又有广播，
让我们先回家，
下午两点后才能回到学校继续上课。

步行回家的路上，
看见消防车，警车都来了。
心想应该是不懂哪栋楼发生火灾吧？
又或者这只是火警演习？
（到了大学也有火警演习的吗？）

下午回去上完课后，
问了问老师，
原来是，
有人为了逃避考试所以报警说学校有炸弹！

无言。。。。。。

我们的大学全是医科生，
当中竟然有这样的医科生。。。
那以后在医院不想救人时，
是不是就会报警说医院有计时炸弹啊？

好笑。。。。。。

和气

朋友，

大家生活在一起就是要和和气气嘛
如果相处得有心结的话
哪会开心呢？

与其改变别人，不如先改变自己

这也是一种成长哦！

加油，朋友~

倒数中。。。

倒数3天就考完试了，
倒数7天就可以回家了。。。

开心兴奋时必备的心情，
但由于上个星期就开始生病到现在，
还在咳嗽，
担心，在机场应该不会被扣留吧。。。
那该死的H1N1还在肆虐，
听说大马已出现了第12宗病例，
可恶。。。
害我回大马还要担心一大堆的事情。。。
在机场还要一直带口罩。。。

这几天，
发生了一些不开心的事情，
被宠坏的我，
开始担心，
再这样下去，
恐怕我会失去某个对我非常重要的人了。。。

被爱惯了，
现在有种感觉，
好想用心好好去爱一个人，
想做爱人的人，
不想让他难过了。。。

我这样的dumb,
做得到吗？
不知道。。。。。。

JOURNEY of COLLECTING ZACHUTS

well...it has been a long time since my last post...n pls give me big applause to welcome me back...luckily,im still alive...

the last 2 weeks were nightmare for me..but i believe the future will be getting worse...before physics final which was last wednesday, we were all stressing out one by one...need to play some sports to relax tat time...the physics final test paper was a miracle..i was lucky enuf to get the variant tat i know 80% of the questions^^ but if u ask me the question again now, i will juz shake my head n say "i dunno"... haha...

we got to know our physics result on the following saturday..I proudly say tat i got 5 which there r only 8 person out of approx. 100 got 5..and...my scores is the highest in 1st year..AMAZING?!!ya...it is amazing...i can only say:UNBELIEVALBE!! i think i was blessed n very lucky...thx God~

the following test was Russian oral test n i got 5 for tat..next is Histology sensory organ test..it is an interesting topic n im a bit confident in it n i got 4-..which im already satisfied with it...^^the following test is Anatomy sensory organ which ended today..last nite we had study group in our room n had Vincent as our tuition teacher...i studied until 5.30am den bumped into cherrie's bed ( coz she was sleeping on my bed)...at 9.14am, 3 of us jumped out of our bed n started to rush in n out...FYI, our class supposed to start at 9am sharp n it already started...By the time we reached there was edi 10am...luckily Ludmila din piss off n juz let us start our test ORALLY...haiz...i failed to answer some of the questions coz i nvm tot she will ask bout tat...but at last i managed to win back some marks based on the question of lacrimal gland reflex n tr. vestibulospinalis...forcefully she gave me 3+ n gave me credits on my zachut book...which means...i had collected 4 credits so far...^^hehe...chemistry n History of medicine will get aftomat n Russian written test will be this Thursday n Biology on Wednesday...T.T

have no idea how to start Bio...

felt regrets for always doing physics lab works during Bio lecture...haha...
seems like i will be killed by bio this time...X.X

anyway, thinking of going back to msia on 30th of June...is the motivation for me to study^^

I'M COMING, MALAYSIA!!!!!

Volgograd

Date : 26/4/2009 (Sun)
Place : Volgograd, Statue of Mother of Russia

Mother of Russia, behind us

Volgo River behind Volleyballers

wow~i still look pro when i salute...hahaaaXD

guess which shadow is mine...

sunrise in Volgo~

噩梦

为什么会梦见那一幕？
为什么要让我梦见那一幕？

原本是一副天伦乐的画面，
怎么转眼间就变成了让我心如刀割的画面，
那种痛苦在身体里心里，
不是蔓延，
而是狠狠的爆发出来，
想喊都喊不出声音，
我隐隐约约听到自己在抽蓄，
才及时把自己从噩梦中拉出来。。。

我永远记得
永远记得
那个让我接受不了的画面
那种我无法释怀的痛

醒来后，
我问了她，
为什么要让我梦到那一幕？？

要死也不给我死得快点

终于熬过了近期内最艰难的考试
两个星期以来
心灵上担心害怕
但实际动作却没有很大
前两天熬夜的结果。。换来。。。
一脸的青春痘
疲劳的身躯
破碎的心
几滴还没被人看见就已蒸散掉的透明液体。。。

昨晚请来了小老师
聪明的小老师解开了我们所有的疑惑
但考试过关拿好成绩还是不是读书一天两天就能做到的

前晚半夜3点起来读到天亮
每天去上课都把Sapin Human Anatomy带着
书包都重得把我们压垮了
昨天只让眼睛休息2小时
脑袋似乎没有休息到
就这样
带着这样的精神状况上战场了

其实，
老师给的题目我都会
整体上都答得还好
但我却败给了Muscles
特别注重这部分的她看到了一点的错误
真的只是一点哦
就立刻把我的分数跳过4降到3。。。。。
还希望我在学期结束前找机会重考肌肉这部分
把分数拉高。。。

看来，
这场仗没有这么容易结束
要死也不给我死得快点

加水吧～

冰

早晨清爽的天气，
宜人舒适的风景，
原来都只是暴风冰雨前的客气招待。。。

your demise...

an interesting drawing rite?!

u know wat...

this is drawn by 5 so-called future doctors...

YOUR DEMISE IS...

WHEN YOU KNOW US......

muuuahahhahahahahahahahahahaahaahahahahaaahahaaa~!!

SuMmaRiZe>>> APRIL

finally went thru all the things in this beautiful month--April

u muz be curious..wat things happened in this month...
coz i rarely post any post regarding to those events here...
my bad...coz im lazy...hehe

but now...
let's have a review...

APRIL:
1)13/4~April's bufday
2)17/4~outing with volleyballers
3)19/4~body check-up for Volgames
4)23/4-26/4~Volgames
5)26/4~shopped for Massad
6)30/4~shopped for Massad again

Overview>>>

April's bufday...it's me^^
a bufday full of surprises...this was my first bufday in a foreign country n without my family accompanying me...and i couldn't forget tat on tat day Ludmila was planned to give us anatomy and histology colloq on the topic of Nerve Tissue...tat was the hardest topic i ever seen and the contents about our brain n spinal cord really drove me crazy...this was a very important colloq for us...i tot my frens won't be able to celebrate my bufday with me...so i was like...totally not expecting anything on tat day...coz they said will celebrate later when we go to Volgames...

Surprisingly,they gave me a big BiG BIG surprise 2 days earlier...

after tat,on the day b4 colloq n my bday,our group decided to postpone the colloq to friday...another present for me^^so i can study for few more days...hehe...

after the earlied celebration,i tot nothing will happen on tat day...i tot...i tot... tat means something did happen...haha...my dear roommates woke me up fr my dreamland n presented a small cake bar with big candle infront of me...2nd time blown on candle...another 2 gals which is Alice n Xjie suddenly appeared with big chocolate cake n big candle...tricky gals...haha...so i had blew 3 times of candles in 1 year of bday...=.="haha

thx to u gals..u all r so sweet~
n also thx to sinthong n thomas for making me a pizza as present^^

夜游@探险

好天气，好心情，好朋友。。。
轻轻松松的，
穿得暖暖温温的，
到宿舍对面的公园散步。

公园范围广大，
四面八方都有树，
左弯右拐都有路，
走了一条不明路，
来到不知名小镇，
兜兜转转乱乱闯，
终究不知身何处，
决定放弃探险记，
傻笑漫游回头路。

哇塞～！
不知不觉变成七言律诗了！
真是不得不称赞自己有天分～
*脸皮厚到*

昨晚整夜通宵读神经系统，
考试虽然通过了，
但自己还是不满意成绩，
所以决定找机会再重考，
很不甘心，
很不服气，
我应该可以做得更好的，
要证明给老师和自己看，
我是知道的！

就这样！
加～～～～水！！！！

telen...who r u???

Telencephalon...
why r u so complicated n hard to understand???

i muz defeat u~!!!but maybe not today...haha

sweet touch is back^^

vball practice as usual..but this time we keep on changing place to play...

first we played infront of semirami(a russian bar)...there is a very big spacious empty parking lot there..first first when we were playing..a gal(not like russian but she cant speak language other than russian) joined us in playing vball...honestly she play quite ok lar...after tat, a guy frm dunno where suddenly appeared and wanna join us too...to show politeness we juz let him joined.. who knows...other of his frens came too...they couldn't play in proper way n made the ball flied everywhere...den i noticed most of them had a knife with them..den i told my frens with the language which they dunno la of coz...damn scary...dunno when they will show their knife n ugut us with watever they want...n we only had 1 guy with us tat time...so we faster thought of an excuse den cabut lar...phew~~

after tat, we changed our location to the park...there we met another russian guy...=.=dunno y today we had some kinda of affinity with russian..haha..the guy asking for joining us in playing vball oso...actually we were kinda worried..but seems he was alone..so juz let him in la..who knows...he is a super pro player in vball...haha...really had fun playing with him...^^

the climax is...i accidentally hit our "sweet touch" ( the nicest touching vball) up to the roof of a building nearby...ohno!!there was no any stairs or ladder to go up to the roof..when we were about to give up..the guy passed his cell phone n started climbing up a tree next to the building..!*sweat!*tat was really kept our eyes peeled..luckily he managed to throw the ball down n landed safely..phew~he had our big big applause n invitation to our following vball training..hehe..maybe he can be our free coach..muakakaka~!

hope our following vball training can be so joyful as today...not tat stressful like ytd...^^

p/s: the dirty ball caused some kinda rashes on our hand..iiyew!dirty ball!!maybe practising outdoor is not a good idea...

....dyspnoe

life recently is awful...although my bufday juz passed...but everything seems juz stress me out... anatomy colloq, histology colloq, chemistry colloq, biology colloq, philosophy colloq, lost my precious things, not enuf of sleep every night, still have to get up from nap in the evening for volleyball practice, dance(juz quit today due to... ...dunno...)

dyspnoe...have difficulty in breathing..........

any latin or greek word for pouring tears??

chill~not tat serious...at least wont pour...

i know how i should face all these...i know how i should think...give me some times...juz let me release me feeling for awhile, can i?i will get back on my feet soon...juz need time to cope...

~GaM3 StarTed~

GAME STARTED...........

1st : Spinal cord, brain, cranial nerves, nuclei, ventricular system, conducting tracts..........

2nd : types of neurons, tissue n system, cerebellar cortex........

3rd : terminology of latin, greek........


dun like to study under this condition..
i think most of the gals dun like..
cant cheer up..
no motivation..
cant concentrate..
no idea how to keep my mind on books..

this game has been started...
my opponent is myself...
i wonder when i will GAME OVER...
or perhaps i will hear U WON...??!

first thing to do is...

keep myself happy & energetic...

so...chocolates will be the best choice...

....^^

為“地球一小時” 算算賬

2007年，悉尼率先進行了“地球一小時”的嘗試。據澳大利亞能源公司公布的數據，熄燈一小時為悉尼節省了48760千瓦時的電力，相當于40多萬臺電視或80萬只60瓦燈泡同時開啟消耗的電力，減排的52噸二氧化碳，等同于101800輛汽車的一年排放量，悉尼的“地球一小時”看起來頗有成效。然而，當這一係列驚人的數字被公諸于眾後不久，關于“地球一小時”的質疑和批評隨之而來。

一些批評之聲認為，“地球一小時”對于遏制全球變暖來說根本就起不到作用，因為人們在這一小時內節省下來的電是會被其他燒炭的能源抵消掉的。芝加哥大學一位經濟學博士大衛·所羅門還特意對這些數據進行了一次統計分析，並將調查結果寫在了《個人生活方式的改變對減少耗電量有多大效果》的報告裏。在這份報告中，所羅門指出，單純用預計用電量和實際用電量相減就得出用電量減少了多少的計算方法是不科學的。通過計算，所羅門發現，關于“地球一小時”的節電數據實際上無形中包含了當天其他時段用電量的減少數，如果拋開這些因素，這一小時內悉尼的用電量其實僅僅下降了2.1%，在統計學上，這個比例和零沒什麼區別。在分析了南威爾士州過去8年的電力數據後，他還發現，“地球一小時”對電力消耗的減少作用在過去8年中每4天就會發生一次，而這種變化完全是因為電力消耗過程中的自然變化。

所羅門希望能用他的“較真”證明，“地球一小時”的象徵意義要遠遠大于它的實際意義。有人在博客上稱這個活動是一種“荒謬的時尚”，認為用蠟燭取代電燈其實得不償失。“一根標準大小的蠟燭充分燃燒後會釋放15克二氧化碳，28根蠟燭釋放的二氧化碳和用來點亮一只10瓦燈泡的碳排放量是相同的。”氣候變化專家蒂姆·布萊爾甚至發起過一個名為“用電一小時”的活動，號召人們在“地球一小時”內盡可能用電，完全就是在和“地球一小時”唱反調。

《澳大利亞人報》的記者馬修·華倫在2008年“地球一小時”活動當天撰寫了一篇報道，標題是《澳大利亞人擁抱的是“地球一小時”，而不是綠色能源》。在文章開頭，他寫道：“數以萬計的澳大利亞家庭和企業在‘地球一小時’結束後再次打開了燈，但他們當中只有10%將會轉用綠色能源。用蠟燭點亮一小時的象徵意義和實際行動之間的差距是巨大的。”

活動主辦方提供的數據，首次“地球一小時”吸引了悉尼54%的市民參與，但有調查顯示，只有8%的家庭簽署了綠色能源計劃。澳大利亞能源零售商奧萊利說，雖然“地球一小時”這樣的活動有助于提高人們對氣候問題的認識，然而，澳大利亞公眾對全球變暖並沒有真正的切身之痛，這直接導致了活動的作用僅僅流于表面。世界自然基金會澳洲執行長格雷格·伯恩也承認，“地球一小時”只是象徵性的。“雖然是象徵性的，但它給了每個人機會去採取行動，即使這些行動對緩解全球變暖的影響很小。”

Aesthetic

Aesthetic

作词：今井麻纪子　作曲：泽野弘之 Vocal：関山蓝果

longing for you day and in dream

每天在梦中期待着你

I'm hoping you are here and leading my way

我希望你永远在这里并引领着我

You steers my road anytime I need

无论何时，只我的需要，你就总是掌握着我的路途

If you walk away, I will follow you

如果你一路走下去，我将跟随着你

Trying my life

尝试着我的人生

With your sacred gifts you gave to me

有着你给的神圣的礼物

I won’t vain and succeed it as your precious soul

我（的人生）将不会空虚，将会（变得)很成功就像你圣洁的灵魂一样

Holding your hand

握着你的手

And I'm walking through the all of the world

我将走遍全世界

Carrying your wish like the Venus in the dim sky

带着你的祝福就像黑暗中的金星

stay healthy~

fall sick these few days..well, i shd say, God heard what i said n fulfilled my wish..ok..thing happened like this........

Sunday nite, we were studying histology..having nerve tissue test on the next day..but ya know.. sometimes really dun have the mood to sit still infront of my table n only stare at those annoying books..this is so-called uni life..assignment..presentation..tests non-stop..sometimes really wish tat i could run away frm these..perhaps...get sick??this stupid thought keep circulating in my mind.."i want to get sick so that i can absent tmr!!"...who knows...i started to have running nose when i was still studying hard on those nerve tissue...finally i went to bed around 3am...

the next day,thing haven come yet..i went to uni as usual although i was so reluctant to go...first class was histology..test..well..i have to say..i think i had done pretty good in that test n i got a 4^^feel worthy to burn midnight oil on the previous nite..but after that, i started to feel dizzy... feel my head became heavier..even when Ludmila was demonstrating the structure of brain to us in the corridor, i cant stand properly..therefore most of the time i lean on the wall so tat i could save some strength to listen to her explaination..

after the long hard time in histo class, i decided to cut the rest of the classes n lecture..waited so long for the bus..the cold wind blew on my face made me feel more dizzy..

reached home safely, took some pills, sleep...

woke up ard 3.30pm...feel very hot but warm in my blanket...dun feel like get out of my bed coz i feel kinda pain once my skin contacts with the cold air...

last nite,feel heaty...maybe got minor fever...put a small cold towel on my forehead den sleep until this morning...feel much better now...no fever...only got flu...skipped today classes..hope to get enuf rest at home so tat can recover faster...

God really heard my wish tat nite.......
being healthy is better than being sick.......

BLANKED MIND.........

....Ploha

再次拾起久违的篮球

昨晚真的超爽的！！第一次，打夜球，20年来的第一次！嘻嘻～

为了原本是今天举行的大学运动会（球类运动），本小姐参加了篮球队，代表我们first year的，去了昨晚9点的练习。。。

本以为只是轻轻松松的练下技术，怎知道和校队一起练，各year的代表都来了，30-40人，教练好像也因此兴奋起来，给我们个够够力的体能训练。一开始，跑了篮球场不懂多少圈，应该没有少于10圈，然后练冲刺，倒退跑，整20分钟没有停止的慢跑+脚部动作，传球，上篮，最后一弹板结束当然还有cool down啦～教练带我们做的cool down很周全，全身的筋骨都拉到了，一个字，爽～^^

平时打排球都没有出这么多汗，在马来西亚就会出汗啦，但来到这冰天雪地的国家，流汗是件很难得的事，昨晚总算出了一身汗。^^所以，我打算以后每个拜五晚上都去练篮球，相信是绝对健康而且会让我开心的，就算第二天早上有排球练习，我都想去出身汗！

再说，一个星期下来，星期一和星期五是最难熬的，尤其是星期五，有沉重的anatomy class & lecture。。。熬完后，打下球，出下汗，心情真的愉快轻松多了！^^

亲爱的

终于体会到你为何这么爱运动了

我以后也要常运动

像你一样

Korean Mix Rice???

last nite we had "pot luck"..but this time was a bit different.. we were trying to do Korean Mix Rice with our ownself-created sauce.. the ingredients were common: cucumber, salted carrot, salted mushroom, lettuce, cooked cabbage n chinese cabbage and half cooked egg.. the sauce to mix with the rice is..erm..a bit Chinese..We use: soy sauce, sweet soy sauce, kicap soya pekat, bijirin oil...these r so Chinese..haha..so i think we were doing Chinese Mix Rice instead of Korean.. hahaha..and i did really think b4 to mix with Marmite, TomYam paste, chili powder and watever paste i have..but Cherrie stopped me from doing tat..haha..i think it might probably ruin the taste of my rice or i might get diarrhea the next day..haha..

worst training

ytd was the worst training i ever had..not tat they train bad.. juz tat our performance was really really suck... made alot of mistakes.. no chemical within teammates.. n next saturday is the first match.. wat to do... many things ran in my mind during training.. had a stressful n failure game vs a whole guy team, our seniors, to train us up.. keep on losing marks.. n im the setter.. quite important player in a team, this makes me more stress up... some stupid ideas came in my mind.. "i cant do it, i need someone to replace me, why the former setter didnt join this year??!we will probably loss if i do more mistake... .... ......" my tears nearly drop in the middle of the game.. tried very hard to force my tears to go back in.. phew~everything ends up very bad.. my mood was bad..my teammates either.. but i tried to cheer up coz i know things will be worse if we r so down... ytd was really a bad day.. heart sad.. mood spoilt.. knee hurts.. hands bruises.. Conclusion, gotta buy some knee pad n fingers tape to protect my body.. *winks*
#see, i recovered so fast^^hehe...(ys, u muz too ya.. be tough, gal..)

those guys r really strong.. not to mention their serves.. their spike is frightening too.. hope our opponent wont be like them.. Our first game is versus the champion team of interbatch game.. this shows tat how strong they r as they r the winner in winners..haiz..cant imagine how embarrass it will be if *touch wood!!!* lose the game..


p/s: i really recovered fast..after came out frm the sport zall, i was too excited and made a snow angel with xjie*smile*..xjie..thx for companied me^^photos will be up next..hehe

p/s: monday is Women's Day, but we had physical training in the staircase..T.T

p/s: Chris suggested us to have an outing.. i agree^^

p/s: i did revise the game, it played in my mind last nite b4 i slept..

few things to rmb:

1) bend down b4 the net if i estimate the ball will kena the net

2) set the ball not too near to the net for gals

3) the most important: communicate!!!! shout out loud!!!

Gals, cheer up~!!

smoker

a hectic week passed again, wanna play hard in this weekend, but couldn't. coz an extremely difficult test which is anatomy colloq on the topic of joints n muscles is coming next Friday. We have to memorize all the names of muscles and joints from head to toes and every of the ligaments, functions, movements, axials, components etc etc...dun feel i can pass this colloq..

Today I passed the Histological part of Muscles colloq, passed, but not very good, im not satisfied with my answers, cant answer all her (Ludmila, our lecturer) questions.. last nite studied until almost 4am wat for??got 4- for the colloq.. someone can get the same mark as me even though the person studied less than me.. a big big failure.. studied hard, but not smart.. stupid!!!haiz~

Had experienced Ludmila's style of giving test today, orally for the whole test, ask questions that r out of my expectation. I wonder what n how she will ask in the next colloq.. better dun be so out of my expectation again. Coz really felt very stupid today to sit beside her n laugh like an idiot saying "wait, let me think, i read tat b4..." while my mind was totally blank... bad..really bad.. anyway, quite relief after passed the colloq^^

Next, some X smoker, dunno what is in his/her mind, smoked in the toilet, the only toilet outside our lecture hall(A6)!! As u know how irritating is the smell of tobacco plus it was in the toilet!!! U can imagine how suffer i was to force myself to use the toilet coz i have no other choice.. I smell like some kind of hangus thingy after came out of the toilet!
hatred!! Hatred!!! HATRED!!!!

gotta sleep early but now is already 2.21am.. tmr got volleyball training at 9.30am.. will get fine if late..10mins 50 roubles.. Vball.. FIGHTING!^^

One Life

Event : One L1fe, Make it Count! (Moscow Malaysian Fellowship)
Date : 1st March 2009
Time : 5pm-8pm
Venue : Holiday Inn, Moscow

Let's see :

Chih Wan, Yunn Min, Isaac

Billy~

Cherrie, me, Lk, Alice, Xjie

we took this pic while waiting to take our coat

(coz there was hundred of ppl wanted to collect their coat after the event)

Cherrie, Yunn Min(pianist of the event), Xjie

Alice, Lk

Vivien, Lk

nice costume Vv~

Lk, Jowyne(our lenglui~chubby cute gal^^hehe)

Cherrie, Yee Chuin

me, Betty, Lk

goodies bag

Two important days in our life:

1st: the day u was born to this world

2nd: the day u know why u r here in this world

情人节

相似度：？？%

我评的话

有80%吧！

哈哈

这不是重点

重点是这是我今年的
情人节礼物

的一部分

哈哈

刚看到时真的吓了一跳

从来不知道他这么有绘画天分

或许有人觉得不怎么样

但对我来说

这是个很大的惊喜^^

在乎的不是画得多好

画得多相似

我在乎的是什么

应该心里有数了吧~

呵呵